All this wentgobriskly through her mind , undeterred by the reflectionreflectionthat tears were as much out of the Doctor 's way as embraces ; and in this mood she spedspeedswiftly along in the inspirationinspirationof her first sorrowsorrow, as she imaginedimagine, but in reality to suffer her first disappointment , which was of a less soothing character than that mild and manageable grief .