All this wentgobriskly through her mind , undeterred by the reflectionreflectionthat tears were as much out of the Doctor 's way as embraces ; and in this mood she spedspeedswiftly along in the inspirationinspirationof her first sorrowsorrow, as she imaginedimagine, but in reality to suffer her first disappointment , which was of a less soothing character than that mild and manageable grief .
But the gleam of a bright red firefirethrough the parlour window had more effect in cheeringcheermy spirits , and rebukingrebukemy thankless repinings , than all the sage reflectionsreflectionand good resolutionsresolutionI had forcedforcemy mind to frame ; — for I was young then , remember — only four-and-twenty — and had not acquired half the rule over my own spirit that I now possess — trifling as that may be .